There's a vial of LOVE in my pocket!

Kia Ora... Arohanui...

Over the last three months of being in this vast land of goodness, we've met some beautiful beautiful beautiful people.. And it's been absolutely the most precious blessing that we could have asked for! The love shared between people is so key to having a beautiful life.. an open heart and a shining, welcoming face.. Those around me have been wonderful in so many ways. So generous.. So patient.. So giving of their time.. So willing to teach.. So open to new ideas.. So open to new faces.. So willing to give us all they can for no more than the sheer enjoyment of having us around. How wonderous!

Why aren't all the peoples of this world so giving, so patient, so open and so willing to share their time??

It's so much more enjoyable being around people that are willing to let go, willing to LOVE everybody without question.. Then you stumble into an environment where it's all business, there's no love, no "this is why we do what we do, for the love of it!", no patience, no willing to give a damn thing apart from cold demands.. To say "please" would be out of their phsyical ability. How sad. How sad it is to be in an environment when all you want to do is reach out to the people that you're so closely relating with, daily, but it's just not possible. We've found ourselves in one of these positions and it's really quite awful. Baha'u'llah says "..possess a pure, kindly and radiant heart, that thine may be a sovereignty anvient, imperishable and everlasting". Of course! How else can we all be open, loving peoples if we do not possess the most basic of all virtues, a kind heart? But still, such hard thing to possess for some.

I feel, after much thought and having been given cold eyes and closed hearts now for more than a week, that my only option here is to humble myself before these people in need of Light and offer them my own patience, love and service. Then, carry on my journey and pray that they can learn to see the light in all peoples. "The essence of Understanding is to testify to one's poverty, and submit to the will of the Lord, the Sovereign, the Gracious, the All-Powerful"... In this case, I consider these peoples we are staying with to be a test.. Something put in our path that we obviously have something to learn from.. So, in the end, I thank the One who has given me this test. Even though it's incredibly irritating that I must stay there and feel this angst for another 6 days, I will learn what I can.

A little Blue Book has found it's way into my possession recently and has been warmed by the palms and fingers of my hands for a while each day while my mind expands to allow room for all the huge, beautiful ideas it contains. Such a little book but so many very empowering words that seem to Somehow make their way into my bloodstream and welcome the shivers of Knowing. How is it that I've never felt like this before? How is it that I've never been offered this knowledge before in my lifetime? Almost like it wasn't a part of this World. But I feel that now I've been given the chance, I must take the opportunity and confront those parts of me that have, only until now, been neglected.. Purely out of fear.. impatience.. disbelief.. ego.. pride.. "Teachings For The New World Order" be it's name and Baha'u'llah be it's creator.

Never before, ever, in my entire life have I ever considered it possible that I'd be eagerly reading the words of a man who is said to be speaking the "Words of God". Never. I'd have thought it to be a threat before.. Far to big for me... Why now? Why not before...?

Haha! That's the fun of it all, isn't it? Not knowing, just welcoming.. Just feeling that it's right.. Not having to doubt whether it's Truthful, just truly knowing it's the best thing for you.

Birthday time is getting closer for this Little Lady.. And she's certainly getting excited!! A Birthday in Melbourne, how super. I've no idea what the day will hold but again, that's the fun of it!! Definately a picnic under a tree.. Maybe sprawled out before the great blue sky and clouds with the grass tickling my skin.. Maybe a movie.. Maybe a glass of fermented grape over a pizza... OOOh can't wait. Twenty Three and so many years ahead of me to be excited about. Oh my heart beats faster just thinking of it all.

I miss my Mummy.. I miss my Whanau.. I miss my Moolah.. I miss Aotearoa..

Sydney is going to be the dessert of my birthday.. The Bahai temple there awaits our rosey cheeks, knowing we've been anticipating it for such a long time..

Until next time,

Peas, Love & Light

xxxx